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Saturday, December 5th, 2009
7:38 pm	Just for one night can we pretend that this is normal Just for tonight can we pretend that nothing’s wrong Can we forget that we are tired and broken Tonight can we act like we’re still strong Just for one night can we pretend the worst is over Just for tonight can we allow ourselves to breath Can we let die, the flames that burn around us Tonight can we live without disease If we question our impermanence We may not live forever But if the sun comes up tomorrow Why should we hope for better Just for one night can we pretend that we are happy Just for tonight can we leave behind our grief Can we ignore the storm clouds in the distance Tonight can we rely on our belief Just for one night can we laugh at our misfortune Just for tonight can we sing away the fear Can we let go of everything that we’ve lost Tonight can we hold the future near Sometimes, even when your heart is made of ice, the warmth of tears can be felt trailing down your cheeks... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 29th, 2009
12:14 am	A magic so pure to cover the eyes of all she encounters... But yet, leave her own eyes to weep. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 17th, 2009
10:46 am	I am merely the product Of the life that I've lived An amalgam of sorrows And the wisdom they give But the weight has grown heavy And its dragging me down It's so hard not to sink now But I don't want to drown I'm damaged But somehow I've managed This far But I don't know if I can find my way back home I'm damaged But somehow I've managed For now But I don't think I can face this on my own It's absolutely euphoric while at the same time remaining incredibly heartbreaking that after an entire year, you have the exact same effect on me. The way your presence filled the room with a warmth one can only truly find coming from flames rising up to touch the sky. Those eyes that hold years beyond where you stand in this world. Sometimes I think I've tricked myself into seeing you for more than you are because my heart sank so deep within my chest when you came along. Then I realize I am not that foolish and you truly are that beautiful. If to suffer is holy I'll take my share of the pain I can swim through this sadness If there's something to gain I can reach for the surface And try to pull myself free But the last thing I want is To drag you down here with me Then I realize that she has a hold over you, merely in the way that the title you two have is binding for as long as you think it might be okay to stay. It kills me to not be able to scream out to you to go, not for me but for yourself alone. You will grow so big and strong; to be the most immense oak in the forest of this world and I want it to be smooth for you. I want to hold your hand and guide you but I have given up this hope; placing it in a cabinet of thoughts I rarely pull out to look upon. I'm damaged But somehow I've managed This far I opened the door as of yesterday and looked upon the thought as I sat within inches of you. Beautiful. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 11th, 2009
7:09 pm	One spark amongst the embers One voice against surrender One dream that's worth defending One love that's never ending Perhaps I am taking the steps that shall lead to a more withered door; the door I've always held my heart out for. I see the end in you; it leaves me breathless. How much longer must I burn Until I'm able to discern The root of all this suffering (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 5th, 2009
10:35 pm	The wolf to walk this path alone... You just couldn't fucking step up to all this, could you? Fuck off. (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 1st, 2009
9:43 pm	It's a block and a cylindrical hole. At some point, it has to end. Right? (Comment on this)
6:38 pm	Is it any wonder I can't sleep All I have is all you gave to me Is it any wonder I found peace through you Turn to the gates of heaven, to myself be damned Turn away from light It's not enough, just a touch I taste, I love I come, I bleed enough I hate, I'm not I was, I want too much It's never enough. I wonder when this will all become too much. I still regret you. (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 31st, 2009
12:50 pm	I have this need I need to see you bleed I need to taste your brain Oh god it drives me insane Come, come over here my dear There's nothing for you to fear I need a little piece of your head So you too can be among the living dead You know I need it You know I feel it You know I want it Some fresh blood and flesh I truly wish I knew what to say to make you feel or to hear those feelings play out into words. Please forgive for me wrong My desire is so strong I can not help it I have to obey You know I'll eat you if you choose to stay Cause I'm an angel Cause I'm am a devil Cause I am a lost soul Feeding off your flesh and blood You are my angel You are my lost soul You are the one I need to kill my desire to feed You know I need it You know I feel it You know I want it Some fresh blood and flesh Cause I'm a girl I am a zombie I am a zombie girl Happy Halloween; A night without your fingers running through my hair but the realization that you called to see how I was and to tell me where you will be tonight. (It's a slow process but I see it going much further. I hope I'm not in fantasy land.) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 21st, 2009
8:27 pm	Sometimes when this place gets kind of empty Sound of their breath fades with the light I think about the loveless fascination Under the milky way tonight I think this is good for me. I think he will be the one who teaches me to walk down a better path in this regard. For the record, he did tell me he would do this for me. Perhaps I never thought it would happen. Perhaps I'm incredibly scared. I'll admit to that, I am. I really am. I think about the loveless fascination Under the milky way tonight He has his faults and flaws, but I know he's wonderful beneath it all. I know he sees the same in me. I can see hope in all this. (Comment on this)
Friday, October 16th, 2009
10:51 pm	I'm so sick of you tonight You never stay awake when I get home Is something wrong with me, something wrong with you I really wish I knew, wish I knew, wish I knew I'll give you candy, give you diamonds, give you pills Give you anything you want, hundred dollar bills I even let you watch the shows you want to see When I was young I learned a game Where love and happiness were the same Now I'm older and I don't play I found out the hardest way I always find out the hardest way. I'll always be the hardest girl. (Comment on this)
10:07 pm	Further and further and fucking further. I'm breathless and it isn't magical. (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 15th, 2009
8:13 pm	Sometimes when this place gets kind of empty Sound of their breath fades with the light I think about the loveless fascination Under the milky way tonight I honestly thought you'd be the one. Isn't that always the way? Wish I knew what you were looking for Might have known what you would find Wish I knew what you were looking for Might have known what you would find Will I ever be the end result, the destination they're searching to grasp? (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 14th, 2009
10:24 pm	Perhaps this is what I get, for all the broken hearts and misguided steps I've taken. Won't it ever just stop hurting? Can't you just turn back fucking off like you did so long ago? I can't deal with this. I'm not strong enough. Fuck you. (Why do they lace your flesh with such beautiful words that by the end of the speech leave you with eternal scars?) Fuck this. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 8th, 2009
6:50 pm	And that's what you get for falling again You can never get him out of your head And that's what you get for falling again You can never get him out of your head It's the way that he makes you feel Its' the way that he kisses you Its 'the way that he makes you fall in love She's beautiful as usual With bruises on her ego and Her killer instinct tells her to Be aware of evil men And that's what you get for falling again You can never get him out of your head And that's what you get for falling again You can never get him out of your head Exactly. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 6th, 2009
6:43 pm	Not quite sure what I should say I stumble with the words In my heart I hope and pray One day there will be more I continue to look past hollow skin and perhaps see what I'd like to; what I need to. You're in my arms You don't even know me I don't know you I want you to show me I don't need to know where this is going I'm falling Falling Falling for you I wish you were different. I don't know if I can keep pretending for much longer. (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 4th, 2009
7:44 pm	It always comes tumbling down. Little Broken Girl (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, September 25th, 2009
10:39 pm	Let it slide Let your troubles fall behind you Let it shine Till you feel it all around you And I don't mind If it's me you need to turn to We'll get by It's the heart that really matters in the end I've never met someone who held my heart like he does, if anyone ever has. Every day I am so afraid, frightened of when I might fall. Every second I feel like I'm starting to slip, he pulls at my hands again and lifts my chin to the sky. Let it slide Let your troubles fall behind you Let it shine, Till you feel it all around you And I don't mind If it's me you need to turn to We'll get by It's the heart that really matters in the end This happiness is excruciating, filling my lungs with wonder. I'm trying so hard to make it good for myself. (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 30th, 2009
1:08 am	Sounds of laughter shades of life are ringing through my open ears exciting and inviting me Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns It calls me on and on across the universe What does someone do when they find that perfect person for them, despite flaws and differences? That person that doesn't want to run when they see who you are behind all those different masks you've had on for so many years. Sounds of laughter shades of life are ringing through my open ears exciting and inviting me Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns It calls me on and on across the universe I'm trying to take it one step at a time, but I just want to run away. I want to run while he's pulling me back, day after day. How can someone love a mess so much? How can he enjoy me... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 25th, 2009
7:56 pm	I'll kiss your wicked lips and watch as my prince comes to carry me away... Please keep me safe. (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 23rd, 2009
1:52 pm	Insane dreaming this morning. Joe Jonas (From the Jonas Brothers, which I only know of in passing) and I were apparently quick fire lovers. I had met him one night in the city streets. I was still my normal, "dark aura" self and he craved it. I remember our kiss so vividly; slow and passionate, our taste sweet together. Then everything fell apart. (Doesn't it always?) Bombs were clinging to every light pole and street sign, ready to blow at every second. ...And then they did. Everything was engulfed, lit up with the flames of destruction. It was absolutely beautiful with the hint of fear lingering just along it. Then I woke. (Comment on this)